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A woman who is currently single and looking for a woman
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Age: 39, Height: 5' 03" (160 cm), Weight: 240 lbs (109 kg), Body Type: a few extra pounds, Ethnicity: white / european
Where I Live:
USA >> New Jersey >> All >> Browns Mills
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female looking for love in wrong places looking for a non crazy female someone who loves me for me It`s funny how you go through the year and nothing seems to change but when you look back everything is different It`s amazing that no matter how much we tell ourselves that we won`t change for anyone we always seem to And no matter how much we say we won`t care what they think about us it`s the number one thing on our minds If you look at how I used to be and you look at me now you`ll realize I`m not the same girl I used to be All of this shit got to me I pretend to want things I don`t want and I pretend not to want things I do want No one gets hurt except me The lines are so crossed and blurred at this point that I don`t know what I want I just know I want it to be easy... And sometimes it`s easier for me to pretend rather than face my feelings Sometimes it`s easier to try to make it alone rather than risk getting hurt again Sometimes it`s easier to be numb towards certain people so I don`t let them get too close Sometimes I`m scared but when I act numb towards *you* it doesn`t mean I don`t care it means I care too much. I have no idea what`s going to happen when I wake up tomorrow Okay that`s an overdramatic statement In fact most days since I`m a little OCD (not diagnosed just hang out with me a bit life planned to a tee most days) I know exactly what I plan on happening tomorrow but the stark reality is we could all wake up and get hit by a bus Well you know what I mean that`s pretty unlikely as well The thing is that life is really random and things get in the way We want things to happen we want things to work out but when we meet new people they`ve got attachments Just like we have our lives planned out to the second and don`t want life to screw it up But we`ve got to be able to let things get in the way sometimes you know? We`ve got to be willing to step out of our little comfort zones and take a chance Let life hit you in the head
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